To read more about our story read PART 1 and PART 2
This Thursday we got the exciting news that our great friends had their baby! We were thrilled and headed to the hospital right away! Their little girl is beautiful!! It was so fun talking about all the details of delivery and her early arrival. They are amazing people and will be awesome parents! We couldn't be happier for them!
As Mike and I left the hospital I was overwhelmed with so many emotions:
- So much joy for them and their healthy baby!
- Sadness with the realization that we had gotten pregnant at the exact same time as them and had we not lost our baby, we would be snuggling with our baby too.
- Envy, I felt envy. I watched them hold their baby and talk about her and my heart ached for their joy.
My sister's beautiful boy, their second child.
It's a college town that houses many students who get married before leaving school. So colleges normally bring in a lot of students but Brigham Young University brings in A LOT of married students. There is a very high concentration of young married couples, most of which are starting to have kids. You are constantly seeing couples getting pregnant, announcing everywhere, and having their beautiful children.
The birthrate of Utah is 52% higher than the national average. In the United States, approx. 11% of women have fertility problems.
Around every corner is a reminder of this:
- We are the only people in our apartment building without a child or pregnant.
- A couple we know hasn't even been married for as long as we've been trying and they have a beautiful 6 month old son.
- In the past 36 hours, 3 of our friends have had babies.
and so many more come up so frequently.
I could not be more happy for all of them but it's hard to swallow when you've been trying for a while. Each time you realize something like that, a bit of your heart breaks wondering if and when your chance will come. That NEVER changes the fact that we love the family they are starting and we have no ill feelings toward them. Sometimes I think people who are having children think that those who can't yet hate them. That's not true. It's just something that is hard to see and think about. It doesn't mean we're not happy for you!
People everywhere struggle with infertility and I know that so many people are at different stages of the process. It's never easy. Whether you've been trying for 1 year, or 10 years. Whether you still have hope of having your own or you're adopting. If you already have one but can't have another. It's never easy and no one will understand YOUR struggle. No one will understand YOUR pain.